Byron has been sick witch takes on it's own challenges . He's whiny, not himself, his nose is stuffy. on top of that today I'm dealing with a lot of stuff . it's not been a fun day for us both, me being in pain. Byron being sick. Part of me snapped today and i hit him on the leg.

Now we don't hit, or should i say i don't hit. I can't i grew up being hit, looking at my own mom in fear. It's not something i want for my son. I hit today. I feel horrible. I feel like i let my mother in. This is a demon i have got to get under control.

but then i'm dealing with something i have feared so long. So i guess sometimes i need to cut myself some slack. i'm only human, but in byron eyes i'm super mom.